getting through it

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My dog has no personal boundaries

I don't know if I would be okay if I didn't have dogs. I have really bad days, difficult but manageable days, "meh" days, and good days. My dogs are unwaveringly there for all of them. To cuddle and play and demand that I think about more than myself. They help keep me going. Even when fatigue grasps me like a chokehold and makes me want to sleep all day. They want nothing more than to be fed, to exercise, and to be near us. 

Today I am choosing to be thankful. Thankful for my dogs. Thankful for my partner in life, my husband, who loves to go on the same adventures I do. Thankful for my friends. Thankful for the two robins using the bird bath at work right now, as I sit outside and write this. Thankful for my kayak and all the lakes I live near. 

Things are really tough right now, but I have right now to be thankful still.

What and who are you thankful for today?


May YHWH sustain you during these very trying times,
KELLY ANN

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